Practical Nonsensicality

Summer Photography Project: People and their Cars!!

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Contact me for details if you'd like to be involved!!
Cheers, darlings.

2010-02-24T18:07:00.003-05:00

Click to join my photography Fan Page on Facebook! :)

Please contact me if you'd like to book a shoot!
dont.feed.the.dinosaurs@gmail.com

Cheers, darlings. ♥

Update?

2010-02-03T15:49:00.002-05:00

Things are going alright.

I just went to lunch at Steak 'n' Shake with Granddad. It was a lot of fun; even though we live together, we haven't gone out to lunch together in forever! It was nice. :)

It's gorgeous outside. I really want to go out and play, but no one else is out and about today. Boo.

2010-01-12T18:28:00.001-05:00

Sunday I went to the parents'... And I told Mum I am not going to school this semester. It actually went over pretty well. I told her all the reasons why, and all of my goals and plans for the next few months... I feel like for once she was actually listening to me. She wasn't upset and seemed to agree with me. It made me feel really good.

Sunday night went to Travis'. Watched the WEC fight... there were some pretty good fights. Yesterday we just kinda played around all day... woke up in the best of ways, then long hot shower, and kinda napped a lot of the afternoon while he played video games. Another hot shower. Food. Nothing exciting, but a nice break from what the past few days had been like for me. I love getting to spend so much time with him. He went to work this morning and I made some tea and played with his cat until time for work. Just got home. My kitty is very irritated with me for leaving her alone so long, haha.

I feel mostly good. Lingering doubts, but... what can you do.

Flash

2010-01-09T10:35:00.001-05:00

My weak point is indoor photography. Mostly because the lighting is really tricky, and I hate flash photography. Flash is my biggest weakness. My downfall. So today, I plan on trying to master the flash. I'm reading up all I can on the built-in flash's features, and researching external flashes to potentially buy in the future. I'm hoping to improve my flash skills by the end of today.

Productivity. Go me.

Photoshoots!

2010-01-07T21:59:00.001-05:00

Hey guys! I'm trying to get some freelance projects going... and I really need to build up a portfolio. Which means I need models!!

If you would like to model for me for one of my ideas, or would like me to shoot an idea or event for you, please contact me! There are all kinds of possibilities here. Modeling portfolio shoots, family portraits, engagement photos, maternity photos, pin-up shoots, weddings, sporting events, etc. Or maybe you just want some fun new pictures for yourself!

Because I am trying to build up a portfolio, for the month of January I will do all shoots on a TFCD basis (Time For CD - A burnt CD of the digital copies of the photos taken). I get shots to use, and you get some great pictures! At the end of the month, I will post an idea of what my rates will be for future shoots and events.

Don't be shy!!! I'd love you work with you. Yes, you. :)

You can contact me by messaging me here, or you can also reach me at:
dont.feed.the.dinosaurs@gm

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404.509.8798

2010-01-05T15:16:00.003-05:00

Well, the year's off to a rough start. BUT I still have faith that 2010 will be a good year. I have goals, and I want to see them happen.

On New Years' I was still sick, so I didn't get to go out. Went to work and then came home and napped and stayed in. Friday was still sick. :(

Saturday and Sunday I started feeling much better. Nicole and I went out to Travis' father/son race. It was kind of a long drive, but other than the cold it was a beautiful day. We wrapped up in blankets and some nice woman gave us hot chocolate. Yum. :) After a while under the tent we wandered over to the section with all the obstacles... It was a ton of fun watching people try to get through them. A lot of people avoided them altogether though. Lol.

Then we spent the next couple hours in the bike trailer, because it was much warmer than outside. Made an unpleasant discovery when Nicole started playing with Travis' new phone - I haven't said anything to him, but there's a ton going on in my head now. Do I stay with him or do I walk away? I've decided to think it over for a few days. I'm really upset. But I need time to think.

Nicole and I headed home at the end of the race (Travis and Paul took 4th in the father/son teams- Wooo!!) and we grabbed some Steak 'n' Shake on the way back and ate at Nicole's.

Headed over to Travis' to hang out. Spent the night... mornings with him are the best. I absolutely adore falling asleep waking up all snuggled up. :) Yesterday we accomplished absolutely nothing... which was fantastic. Long hot shower, food, wrestling around in the living room, movies. The best. And by the end of the day I was exhausted and didn't feel like driving all the way back to Acworth... so slept there again.

Today not so exciting. He left for work, and I left for home... showered and then went to work for a few hours. Now... REALLY need to catch up on laundry and cleaning. And give my kitty some love- she gets SO mad when I leave her here alone. Who says cats are low maintenance? Because it's so not true. Haha.

Before I start on the chores though, I'm going to try to start pulling together a photography portfolio. I don't know what's held me back from doing this sooner; I guess I always just think I'm not a good enough photographer to do anything professionally. But after a couple years of all the compliments and all the experience I've gained, I'm starting to think that it's just insecure nonsense keeping me from doing it. But you know what? I want to do something creative with my life, and I want to do something on another level with my photography. So here goes!

Cheers, darlings. ♥

2009-12-31T17:05:00.002-05:00

The end of a year. 2009 was good, overall. I guess I say that a lot of years - but let's be honest, even the bad years are good learning experiences - no regrets.

Moving into Granddad's at the start of April was one of the best things that's ever happened to me. For me, that's when the year really started. I always get a weird feeling when I tell people I live with my granddad, like people will assume that I've got a broken home or I'm a trouble child or somehow an otherwise bad influence. I know I didn't break my home up, and I know I'm not trouble. I know I shouldn't worry about it, but I always do. But the reality of it is, it's so amazing to live in a place that really feels like home, where I don't have to pretend to be anyone else but me. :)

To the Supernatural crew: Those times were easily some of the best days/nights of my life. We always had the BEST adventures. It's really depressing that Supernatural is about to be over for good. And it's kind of depressing that part of the group has drifted apart, and we don't pull together the way we used to. Must all good things really come to an end?

Riley and Nicole, you mean the world to me. It's been a long year full of adventures and twists and turns. However our friendships may change, I've never quite had friends like you guys. I'm so serious when I say that. I've never had such strong friendships that have always managed to pull through everything before. Where we never give up on each other. The things we've all been through together... words just aren't enough. ♥

For the last 8 or so months, I've been dating Travis Wright. We went to high school together and we'd been friends for a while. I really don't know how we got here. But I can tell you this much... I love him. And that feels really good. I hope you know Trav, I enjoy every minute we spend together and I appreciate the things you do for me. Your house really has become like a second home to me. Which really means a lot to me. I don't think I ever expected it to last this long, and I didn't expect to fall in love. But here I am.

Matt, I'm glad we've hung out this year. No one can irritate me the way you do, or make me smile the same way you do. I really missed you last year when we were both busy all the time. You've grown up so much. I can't believe you have a car and started college. We need to keep this up. You're the best, little brother.

My beloved Mustang died a little while ago. We've fixed it so many times (it's been through a lot- it even fell into a ravine once and still ran strong), but this time it just wasn't worth the money to put into fixing it again. Which sort of breaks my heart a little bit. I learned how to drive on this car and have driven it most of the time since. My baby, I will miss you so much. 6 years of amazing adventures.

I worked at Borders through June. Working in the cafe was mostly fantastic - it's always awesome to make delicious drinks and put smiles on a lot of people's faces. Borders - thanks for expanding my love for coffee and espresso. And thank you also for teaching me what kind of job I NEVER want to have again. No job (no matter how much I loved my fellow cafe workers, and the job itself) is worth the extreme stress and bullshit that the Borders management puts on its employees. UGH. Lesson learned.

As for myself... I feel like I've learned a lot this year. About other people and about myself. I've learned patience... and I've learned how to let some things go when it's time to let them go (though I admit I still have trouble in this area- some things are really hard for me to let go of). Dealing with my ex has taught me that sometimes I need to just reign in my temper and ignore him- it's the best way to get a point across. Dealing with a friend taught me that I can't always rescue people who expect me to drop everything and rescue them. And I can't always keep up with friendships that are so one-sided. I can't please everybody all of the time. And you know what? That's okay.

To all my friends: I hope 2010 brings everybody good health and good fortune. I have high hopes for 2010. Cheers, darlings! ♥

2009-12-17T12:33:00.002-05:00

I went to the gym today. I think I almost dropped dead.

For the record, if you're already not feeling so well, working out does not help. Haha. This will be good for me though. If I manage to keep going. Or at least keep exercising. I love yoga, and I'm most likely still going to do it more often than anything else, but I need more cardio. I may be skinny, but I am not healthy. I'd like to change that.

Also note. I have been EARLY to work for the last month. And I've kept my room clean every single day. Sometimes, change is a good thing. :)

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2009-08-19T18:21:00.003-04:00

Hello, world.
I'm opening this blog back up for photos.
& I'm debating deleting my facebook. Or blocking everything on it.
If I do, this is where you will find my photos.
For writing, I (still) use my Livejournal.
The link is not posted, you can ask me for it if you want it.
Take care, darlings. ♥

2009-01-28T15:26:00.002-05:00

I've been writing again.
I've been taking photographs again.
I need to start keeping up with this again.

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2008-05-31T23:47:00.000-04:00

I'm not shy, unless you have a heartbeat.

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2008-05-07T11:46:00.001-04:00

The alley.

2008-05-01T00:24:00.001-04:00

2008-04-30T00:32:00.002-04:00

Finally a couple of halfway decent pictures of us.
He walked all the way to my house in the middle of the night in the rain, just to sleep beside me.
Sunshine, you're amazing.

2008-04-24T18:51:00.004-04:00

There's sand stuck to the bottom of her high brown heels;
Every tiny grain crunches stubbornly
With each step she takes
Across the shiny, sterile white marble floor
Hinting of gritty beaches and late nights
Of salty wind and tangled hair
That she'd tried to forget
(and very nearly had)
Until she'd dressed herself that morning
And hurriedly put on the only heels that matched.

2008-04-19T17:52:00.000-04:00

Faces.

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2008-01-15T01:12:00.000-05:00

Run away with me tonight.

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Swirls & shadows.

2008-01-05T15:00:00.000-05:00

B&W

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♥

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That last picture was taken by Poppa. :)

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The morning after.

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2007-11-05T14:34:00.000-05:00

Abandonment.

2007-11-05T14:26:00.000-05:00

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2007-11-05T14:11:00.000-05:00

I made a shirt.
And... I've got pop's smirk.
Ick.

2007-11-05T13:59:00.000-05:00

Picnic at the park.

Old juice.

2007-10-22T16:46:00.000-04:00

An evening visitor.

2007-10-21T20:24:00.000-04:00

Farewell, little dude. ♥

2007-10-07T17:11:00.000-04:00

Just a few shots from chilling with some of the most amazing friends ever. ♥

2007-10-07T17:00:00.000-04:00

2007-10-07T16:54:00.000-04:00

Even with only seven legs, it's still freaky.

2007-10-07T16:50:00.000-04:00

A couple of different events from Hispanic Heritage month.

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What?

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My little brothers are awesome. ♥

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University.

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Taryn got a car! ♥

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2007-10-01T16:16:00.000-04:00

Rant.

2007-09-11T23:24:00.000-04:00

It was obvious, from frequent subject changes and no allowance for interjection or argument, that he was talking just to hear himself talk. Hell, he blatantly contradicted himself several times without even noticing. He didn't even talk about September 11, he just picked things at random to rant about. It was like watching a brilliant stand-up comedian, except that it was neither brilliant, nor comedic. And this zombified pseudo-cult-like group just sort of absorbed whatever he shouted at them. And it was all shouting; all of it. As one might shout at cows or sheep that they are tryiing to herd together. Telling them what to think, what is right, what is wrong, what is life.

Our country fights to protect our idea of freedom, while stupid people like this fat-ass windbag feel justified to steal a flag (paid for, planned, and planted by a hard-working committee to honour our murdered) and preach total bullshit with it hanging indecoriously from his crotch.

I'm not entirely sure how I feel about that.

11 September 2007

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I can't study on beautiful days. It's just too hard to focus. >.<

Bubbles.

2007-09-09T21:48:00.000-04:00

Rawr.

2007-09-09T19:55:00.000-04:00

My dirty window sill.

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Playing with self-portraits.

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2007-08-29T22:40:00.000-04:00

She took two quarters out of her pocket and slowly, one a time, inserted them into the silver slots on the front of the machine. She rested her hand lightly on the cold metal tab, poised to the thrust the quarters into the unseen abyss of the change well. Even now the prize machines still reminded her of bubble gum and cheap rings. Maybe it had even held them once, before all of this.

Large, woeful blue eyes regarded the world with a mixture of permanent fear and an unquenchable wanderlust. The alley she stood in was cloaked in darkness, but it was easy to tell from the filth and disrepair enveloping her that this was a bad neighborhood. Stagnant silence was broken only by occasional, unidentifiable thumps and bumps. This was the sort of place where someone would only stop of change hearts if they were absolutely desperate. Which, of course, she was.

Returning her focus to the machine, she gazed at the objects within. Through the front of the dirty glass case she could see hundreds of brightly-capped plastic balls. Though the tops were all different colours, the contents of each ball were identical. She hoped they were fresh; she’d had too many close calls in the past. But of course they are, she reminded herself. The government was responsible for stocking the machines now.

She pushed the quarter-slide in roughly, then struggled to pull it back out. One of the plastic spheres rolled down the silver chute into her waiting hand. The sky-blue cap contrasted sharply against the faintly pink freeze-dried lump inside the clear case. With her long thumb nail, she easily flicked the lid off, letting it fall carelessly to the ground. She tipped the open sphere over, spilling its contents into her other hand, and cast the empty plastic bubble onto the ground.

For a moment nothing happened. The air seemed to stand still as she stared at the shriveled mass in her hand. She started to worry that perhaps they were too old after all, that she might be in trouble this time. Then slowly, very faintly, it began to throb. It picked up speed, slurping stale air in and then wheezing it out, pumping harder and growing crimson in colour. Though the night was warm, the noisy pulsations sent shivers through her.

After another glance around she tugged her grey tank top up with her free hand. In another moment she had unhooked the front of her bra and exposed her left breast. Her pale skin was bathed in a soft glow from streetlights in the lane at the alley’s end. Carefully she felt for the tiny black zipper that was just below her breast and, finding it, began to pull upward. The flesh obeyed with little resistance, parting at the zipper’s touch. The zipper stopped six inches up, revealing part of a ribcage entwined in red and blue veins. She gently tugged on a silver knob; two of her ribs swung out of the way, working on tiny hinges. Her heart beat faintly in the dim light, skipping beats here and there. It was utterly run down.

She unhooked the major arteries, leaving them dangling and dripping. Her free hand worked quickly; she had only a few moments in which to make a transition. A firm tug ripped the heart out of its place; she felt a thousand tiny tears as it was pulled away. Fat drops of blood spilled onto her skin and black pants from the loose hanging ends. Another moment later she had the new heart in place and was carefully reconnecting the vital lines. Satisfied it was hooked in, she moved her ribs back into place and told hold of the zipper again. The skin slid back together without leaving any visible seam. She wiped her bloody hand on her pants and tugged down her shirt.

Silently she gazed at the stilled heart she now held in her hand. Humanity, she thought. What was left of it, anyway.

Without a sound, she set it on top of the prize machine and walked toward the street, eager to leave the filthy city. The heart uselessly trickled weak streams of blood down the front of the glass case, utterly abandoned.

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I call it "dead dog in abstract."

2007-08-27T19:33:00.000-04:00

Flaming deathsticks!

2007-08-27T19:31:00.000-04:00

My little cuz. He's been in the hospital five or six days and they still have no idea what's wrong with him. : (

He's a trooper though. ♥

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Nar nar.

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♥